Monday, May 15, 2006

I make no apologies

Just what i said: Yes, I like country music. I take math classes in the summer for recreation. I worship Michael Medved. I don't like Star Wars. I don't like ice cream. And I don't like apologizing for it.
I do not have to like the things you like. I do not have to think the things you think. Do not tell me I have no taste. Don't imply it. Don't even think it. Is it any wonder ppl can't think for themselves? When they try, you ridicule them. What, thinking for yourself is only ok if you come up with the same conclusions as everyone else? I'm not into it.
I am who I am and I do not have to defend myself. I will not apologize.

Monday, May 01, 2006

Judging the Distance

One of the things we talk about in my karate class is judging the distance between yourself and your opponent. You have to adjust your technique and execution depending on how far away from or close to your opponent you are. Sometimes, you are too close to your opponent, so you don't have space to make a move. In that case you need to create some distance by stepping back or to the side or something.
Being that I am still only a white belt, I find all of this very difficult. which isn't so bad. I'm learning and growing. But I seem to have a similiar problem in the real world of my life. Judging the distance: How close am I really to my Mom, my crazy big sister, my out of town buddies, my next door neighbor? How close do I want to be? If I push ppl out of my personal space, am I pushing them too far away? If I act with respect and maybe affection, am i letting ppl get too close? If I give a little, will they expect more next time?
sometimes I know. But sometimes I get confused. How do you know where you stand in all the different relationships with all the differnt ppl in your life?